Some would call how we met fate, others by pure luck, but I know that it was destiny that screwed with my sophomore year schedule.
I had many classes that were a must, and a few electives I wanted to take, but I ended up being stuck in a stupid Earth Science class. I was not happy. The only upside that I saw at the beginning was that my friend Sarah would be in the same class as me. If only I knew I would meet my soul mate in that classroom, maybe I would have been more enthused about the type of rocks that earth had. Let me take you back to that first couple of weeks......
My friend Sarah ended up being assigned to sit in front of me, but she was stuck next to some guy in a varsity jacket. Great...some jocky jerk....or so I thought. He kept trying to say hello to Sarah, but she kept ignoring him, then one day she finally talked back to him and then I said hi too. We found out we shared a lunch together on the opposite day from our class schedule. {Block scheduling} This kids name was Garret and I guess he wasn't a jerk...even if the jacket did make you assume that he would be.
At this time I had a crush on 2 different guys, Aaron and Garret....I liked Garret more as he was only a year older vs 2 years older....but when I went to tell my friend, she told me how she liked him before I had a chance to tell her, so being the good friend I was, I backed down {silently because I hadn't told her I liked him} and they started dating. My friend though, she is picky, to be nice...and broke it off with him not long after they started dating. By then I was dating Aaron and was sooo disappointed with what had happened, but being in a relationship already, I decided to just stay friends with him. Our friendship grew & grew and it wasn't long before I was dating one guy, but in love with another. I suffered in silence for a year and a half.
The sad thing is, I had a mini break up with my boyfriend and wrote Garret a lengthly letter admitting my feelings for him, but when the first day of my junior & his senior year started, he introduced me to his new girlfriend, so I quietly ripped up my letter and threw it away. No need to ruin his relationship. Well, my ex told me he still loved me and blah blah blah we got back together, but it didn't last long before I was miserable. I was head over heels in love and couldn't be with the one I was in love with.
Garret is smart, and he knew I was upset, and although I didn't tell him of my feelings for him, I did admit I was miserable in the relationship I was in at the time. He helped me be strong and break it off with Aaron. Things didn't go quite as planned, but with the help of Garret, I stayed strong & didn't go running back to my ex. It wasn't long after that, that Garrets on & off relationship came to a final end. I was still terrified to tell him how I truly felt, so I decided to just stay best friends with the man I loved vs telling him how I felt and ruining the beautiful friendship we had. It was sooooooooo hard, but I kept strong...at least...for a short while.....
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